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We DO diets. We DO New Year's Resolutions. We DO training. We DO the things that get us to the goal. We DO "be nice and say our prayers". We try this and we try that. We DO a lot of things. But what ARE we? What are we BEING when we are DOING all of this DO? Is there some spot on the map, "DESTINATION", that we are trying to get to by all this doing? Am I a crazy stressed out person playing "calm" when I swim or when I attempt to parent my children. Or am I moving towards BECOMING CALM. Am I shedding the layers that manifest the crazy stressed out. Am I CALM already, deep inside? Is CALM something I have to learn, or relearn, then BECOME? The getting to this place called DESTINATION? Do we throw the map away? Is the spot not the point? Is it about the ability to morph? Go through constant metamorphosis. Always changing. Always becoming. Always ALREADY being at the DESTINATION? Changing. Really changing. Not just faking it, not sort of lying to ourselves, or playing a part. Really changing. Letting go of ourselves, having faith that the next stage will be more beautiful. Must be scary for the caterpillar to go into his sack for a bit, sightless. And what an awe; wouldn't it be cool to experience what the butterfly must experience emerging new. Transformed. ABLE TO FLY. The world to look so different. Having BECOME something different. To grace the world with beauty. For real world application. Do you practice yoga and when the series is done, step up to the top of the mat and let everything hang out waiting for the next instruction? Do you slouch in the grocery store aisle? Are you calm with those you want to impress and yell at your children or spouse? Do you give grace to others when they make a mistake, but not to yourself when you do? Are you DOING? Are you BECOMING?

It's interesting how life is mainly change, yet we have get a pretty good habit of avoiding change, being very resistant to change. Change can be scary. The unknown can be scary. It seems that we are being programmed to "plan ahead", "think ahead", "have all your ducks in a row", etc. I think planning is important, but not to the point were we aren't flexible enough to duck and weave. The other day I was meditating and a picture of a train station come into my mind. A big train station, like one you could experience in New York City. LOADS of people, and sounds. Things going really fast. The trains, the suitcases on wheels, the billion conversations that breeze by the ears. The peeping and bells, the dings and doors opening and closing. The hustle and bustle. The URGENCY. I was thinking that I'm feeling like I'm standing in the middle of all that, with my life. With all the change going on. Things coming pretty fast. LOUDLY, from all different directions. It can get a bit overwhelming. Couple thoughts seemed to tone it all down. Remember, you're standing in the train station. Not everything I see and hear needs my attention. My time. My effort. I can tune some of it out. Just look around, stay focused, use your plan/guide to help you know which you can tune out. If you're not going out of the country, don't look at that sign or sheet. You can still go slow, even if everyone else is sprinting. Sometimes you might need to hurry your backside along, I think more often we can easily not hurry. No location is bad. Just different. You'll learn something along the way. If you can't choose with train, make the best guess. Knowing the last mentioned thought. And putting this one with it. You can ALWAYS get back on when you get there and return. You might see something you never expected, maybe even something you needed before you get to the train you "were suppose to be on". Change can be unpleasant. Difficult to remain relaxed and in harmony. Change can also be liberating. Insightful. Fun. Keep your sense of humor about you. Your plan/guide. And smile.